It’s OKAY…

It’s okay to not be okay…

It’s really okay too if there are problem because not having a problem means you are not growing…

As long as you are not giving up… everything will be fine..

That’s what I always remind myself…

Everyday…

But sometimes I was wondering am I trying too hard ?

Sometimes I was wondering will I be able to hold on… ?

And there are a lot of worriness, and insecurities that I will never know what’s the answer…

But I know I can’t do anything about that… what I can do is to believe and keep doing my best…

After all I’ve promised myself to not be set back by all of those things…

After all I’ve told myself that I have to always be on my best version..

And to love myself even more…

Even though I know I have a lot of weakness… and those weakness always let people down… Sometimes I was wondering why I was born as someone like this…

But in the end I can only be grateful…

Because I don’t want to lose hope…. not only in my self but also in others..

Because I feel like once I lose hope I will regret for the rest of my life..

But yeah it’s true sometimes I’m tired and I was drained, but I always found new strength in Him, in Jesus….

There are a lot of things that I really wanna change, but I know I can’t do it alone I need Him to guide me…

And I need she who will always support me next by me…

As my friend always said…it’s just a bad day not a bad life…

As how can my life be bad when I was surrounded by a lot of amazing people…. Sometimes I can’t even compare to how amazing these guys are…

I feel like I am far behind them and I need to do better…

I need to care more about people and be someone that genuinely care and kind with other people…

But I believe that I’m on the right track and I will just keep on getting better and better and better..

Because something that can’t kill you will only make you stronger….

So it’s ok to fail…

It’s ok to say no…

It’s ok to hurt and be hurted…

It’s ok to be sad..

It’s ok to feel insecure…

It’s ok to be yourself…

It’s really okay to be childish..

It’s really ok to cry when you are sad…

Quite when you don’t want to talk…

Laugh when you are happy…

And space out when you have a lot of things in your mind…

It’s okay…

Because in the end of the day…

You will find those peoples still smiling and waiting and love you for whoever you are…

And of course our Father in the heaven still loves you as you are…

This too I’ll remember every single day….😆